i just have to get one last post in before vacation. mostly because i am so excited i feel like i could explode and there isn't much i can do yet because dusty is sleeping.

i woke up this morning hitting my goal weight for the trip. i got on the scale this morning and thought it was lieing. i literally weighed myself like 6 times and every time it said the same thing. i can't believe it. i never thought ever that i could do it. i just never gave up and right now in this moment i couldn't be happier with myself. the hard work, the dieting, the constant voice i have kept in my head telling myself i could do this. i thought that voice was a lier. i thought i put it there to trick myself into staying motivated so no matter what happened i would still keep going. i am not stopping now. hell no. i still have 30 more pounds to lose before i will be at my dream weight. i know it is a slow process and that i why i am so excited to celebrate this victory. 19.5 pounds. gone. never coming back. i feel like i could do anything right now. i have been struggling with my weight since i had corbin. i hated looking in the mirror. i hated getting pictures taken of myself. i really just hated myself in general. right now i don't. right now i am so proud of myself. i can't believe it. OMG i can't believe it! I AM SO HAPPY!!!

when the crap did it become febuary 5th? WTH! we leave tomorrow. how the hell did this come so quickly? how did i do this? how did i plan this? how do i have everything booked, reservations made, and tickets to the happiest place on earth sitting right in front of me? OMG. tomorrow. tomorrow we arrive in long beach at 7:24. we will be at the hotel by 9 am. the park opens at 10. we will be there in line waiting to go in the park in 24 hours. wow. i am so excited to take corbin. i am so excited for him to see mickey and donald and minnie. i am so excited to take him to the live disney junior show. i am so excited to take him on rides and let him eat sugar all day and run around disneyland without a care in the world. can't wait. so much to do. packing. cleaning. gym. tanning. laundry. key to family member to check on house. paint toes. set dvr. cash in coins we have been saving to add to spending money. one thing that i am more proud of then anything is we paid for this whole trip. didn't charge a thing. aren't charging a thing the whole time we are there. we have more to take and spend then the entire trip cost. holy crap its sunday! i can officially say that we are going to be in disneyland in 24 hours. i cannot believe it. time to wake up dusty and get moving! so. much. to. do.

i just have to get one last post in before vacation. mostly because i am so excited i feel like i could explode and there isn't much i can do yet because dusty is sleeping.

i woke up this morning hitting my goal weight for the trip. i got on the scale this morning and thought it was lieing. i literally weighed myself like 6 times and every time it said the same thing. i can't believe it. i never thought ever that i could do it. i just never gave up and right now in this moment i couldn't be happier with myself. the hard work, the dieting, the constant voice i have kept in my head telling myself i could do this. i thought that voice was a lier. i thought i put it there to trick myself into staying motivated so no matter what happened i would still keep going. i am not stopping now. hell no. i still have 30 more pounds to lose before i will be at my dream weight. i know it is a slow process and that i why i am so excited to celebrate this victory. 19.5 pounds. gone. never coming back. i feel like i could do anything right now. i have been struggling with my weight since i had corbin. i hated looking in the mirror. i hated getting pictures taken of myself. i really just hated myself in general. right now i don't. right now i am so proud of myself. i can't believe it. OMG i can't believe it! I AM SO HAPPY!!!

when the crap did it become febuary 5th? WTH! we leave tomorrow. how the hell did this come so quickly? how did i do this? how did i plan this? how do i have everything booked, reservations made, and tickets to the happiest place on earth sitting right in front of me? OMG. tomorrow. tomorrow we arrive in long beach at 7:24. we will be at the hotel by 9 am. the park opens at 10. we will be there in line waiting to go in the park in 24 hours. wow. i am so excited to take corbin. i am so excited for him to see mickey and donald and minnie. i am so excited to take him to the live disney junior show. i am so excited to take him on rides and let him eat sugar all day and run around disneyland without a care in the world. can't wait. so much to do. packing. cleaning. gym. tanning. laundry. key to family member to check on house. paint toes. set dvr. cash in coins we have been saving to add to spending money. one thing that i am more proud of then anything is we paid for this whole trip. didn't charge a thing. aren't charging a thing the whole time we are there. we have more to take and spend then the entire trip cost. holy crap its sunday! i can officially say that we are going to be in disneyland in 24 hours. i cannot believe it. time to wake up dusty and get moving! so. much. to. do.