i cannot believe that 2011 is over. this year had some major ups and downs. i made some big moves... 2011 our basement flooded. worst.day.ever. i left skywest and got an awesome job at amex. (major upgrade). we didn't get too much accomplished in 2011. i look at all the things we planned on doing that we didn't do and it is a little depressing. so 2012 will be different. i know everyone says that. "next year we will get things done. next year we will accomplish resolutions and get shit done." well i plan on saying those things and meaning them. next year is the get it done now or never year. with planning on getting pregnant the first part of 2013 we have to get stuff done. i don't want to be remodeling a kitchen with a new baby. i don't want to be painting a house with a new baby. i don't want to be scrambling right before i have the baby to get the room ready and house ready. i don't want to be fat when i get pregnant so i go thru the same weight struggles with new baby that i went thru with corbin. so as we all know i am a list person. this is my 2012 list and how i plan i getting it done.
keep in mind we do have a huge vacation planned and when we get back we are going to be dumping money in savings like crazy...

1- lose weight. i know. how cliche am i... last year i lost 30 pounds and gained it all back. i lose i gain i lose i gain. that is because i have never tried to lose weight the way you are supposed to lose weight. i have done hcg, i have crash dieted, i have taken diet pills and starved myself. it doesn't work. it always comes back. i started 2 weeks ago dieting and excersing like a healthy person who wants to lose weight. i have lost 6.5 pounds. who knew diet and cardio actually work. i know it won't happen overnight like hcg, i know some weeks i won't lose anything or worse i might even gain. as long as i keep my mind right and stay focused i can do it and i will. since we are all friends here i will say that right now i weigh 180. i want to be in the 160 area (even if it is 169.9) before we go on our trip. 10 pounds in 5 weeks. i can do that. i just have to be good and keep it up!

2- have an amazing vacation to kick off the new year. that is going to happen. trip is paid for. all we need to do is save up some spending money and we are good to go. no better way to kick off 2012 then disneyland in my opinion.

3- number 3 is a pretty loaded thing. there is so much to do that involves number 3. we are going to disney and when we get back we are going to DUMP money in savings. i mean as much money as possible. 2012 we have to : get new carpet in the living room and upstairs in all the bedrooms, we need to paint the whole inside of the house, we need to get a new couch, new entertainment center, new giant tv, new furniture for the bedrooms. i know i put NEED on a lot of things on the list that we probably don't NEED but we want it and we are going to work for it. i just picture myself in the living room with the new baby on the floor under a blankie on the new carpet with corbin watching a movie on our big tv sitting in our new entertainment center. i don't really love my house. i mean i love having it but i don't love it. i want to walk in my house and look around and love everything about it. i want to love the color of the walls and carpet, love the decor, everything. i think it is really important to truely love where you live. i hate the tile floor and being so freaked out that corbin is going to fall and crack his head open, i hate the dirty off white color of the walls, i hate not having the tv in a proper entertainment center, i hate how the couches slide around on the floor because of the stupid tile. i HATE my kitchen. it is dated, the tile is really poorly done, the countertops are a light color that show everything. we don't have a kitchen table big enough for more than 2 (in fact this table isn't even ours!) nothing matches in the kitchen. everything is the same stupid off whitish color that looks dirty all the time no matter how much i clean. can you tell i really hate off white?

the kitchen won't get remodeled until 2013. i know that. we will have it done before baby. we are going to save money and throw the tax return at it. we want to have a really nice kitchen with new floors, new cabinets, the whole shabang. it will be expensive but worth it. at least as long as we do it the first part of the year i will be hopefully pregnant and not trying to handle a new born with NO kitchen.

so the new year always comes with new goals. new things to get done. new things to accomplish. i am really excited for 2012. i think we are going to have a really good year. i think we are going to get a lot done. its 2012 or never is the way i am looking at it. we have made a goal to have the paint done, the carpet in, new couches, new tv, new entertainment center by august. the rest of the year we will be trying to get new bedroom furniture. corbins room first.

so much rambling. sorry. this blog is about me and what is on my mind so it generally is me rambling about all the things that have been on my mind lately.
enough for now! will post soon with weight loss progress!

i cannot believe that 2011 is over. this year had some major ups and downs. i made some big moves... 2011 our basement flooded. worst.day.ever. i left skywest and got an awesome job at amex. (major upgrade). we didn't get too much accomplished in 2011. i look at all the things we planned on doing that we didn't do and it is a little depressing. so 2012 will be different. i know everyone says that. "next year we will get things done. next year we will accomplish resolutions and get shit done." well i plan on saying those things and meaning them. next year is the get it done now or never year. with planning on getting pregnant the first part of 2013 we have to get stuff done. i don't want to be remodeling a kitchen with a new baby. i don't want to be painting a house with a new baby. i don't want to be scrambling right before i have the baby to get the room ready and house ready. i don't want to be fat when i get pregnant so i go thru the same weight struggles with new baby that i went thru with corbin. so as we all know i am a list person. this is my 2012 list and how i plan i getting it done.
keep in mind we do have a huge vacation planned and when we get back we are going to be dumping money in savings like crazy...

1- lose weight. i know. how cliche am i... last year i lost 30 pounds and gained it all back. i lose i gain i lose i gain. that is because i have never tried to lose weight the way you are supposed to lose weight. i have done hcg, i have crash dieted, i have taken diet pills and starved myself. it doesn't work. it always comes back. i started 2 weeks ago dieting and excersing like a healthy person who wants to lose weight. i have lost 6.5 pounds. who knew diet and cardio actually work. i know it won't happen overnight like hcg, i know some weeks i won't lose anything or worse i might even gain. as long as i keep my mind right and stay focused i can do it and i will. since we are all friends here i will say that right now i weigh 180. i want to be in the 160 area (even if it is 169.9) before we go on our trip. 10 pounds in 5 weeks. i can do that. i just have to be good and keep it up!

2- have an amazing vacation to kick off the new year. that is going to happen. trip is paid for. all we need to do is save up some spending money and we are good to go. no better way to kick off 2012 then disneyland in my opinion.

3- number 3 is a pretty loaded thing. there is so much to do that involves number 3. we are going to disney and when we get back we are going to DUMP money in savings. i mean as much money as possible. 2012 we have to : get new carpet in the living room and upstairs in all the bedrooms, we need to paint the whole inside of the house, we need to get a new couch, new entertainment center, new giant tv, new furniture for the bedrooms. i know i put NEED on a lot of things on the list that we probably don't NEED but we want it and we are going to work for it. i just picture myself in the living room with the new baby on the floor under a blankie on the new carpet with corbin watching a movie on our big tv sitting in our new entertainment center. i don't really love my house. i mean i love having it but i don't love it. i want to walk in my house and look around and love everything about it. i want to love the color of the walls and carpet, love the decor, everything. i think it is really important to truely love where you live. i hate the tile floor and being so freaked out that corbin is going to fall and crack his head open, i hate the dirty off white color of the walls, i hate not having the tv in a proper entertainment center, i hate how the couches slide around on the floor because of the stupid tile. i HATE my kitchen. it is dated, the tile is really poorly done, the countertops are a light color that show everything. we don't have a kitchen table big enough for more than 2 (in fact this table isn't even ours!) nothing matches in the kitchen. everything is the same stupid off whitish color that looks dirty all the time no matter how much i clean. can you tell i really hate off white?

the kitchen won't get remodeled until 2013. i know that. we will have it done before baby. we are going to save money and throw the tax return at it. we want to have a really nice kitchen with new floors, new cabinets, the whole shabang. it will be expensive but worth it. at least as long as we do it the first part of the year i will be hopefully pregnant and not trying to handle a new born with NO kitchen.

so the new year always comes with new goals. new things to get done. new things to accomplish. i am really excited for 2012. i think we are going to have a really good year. i think we are going to get a lot done. its 2012 or never is the way i am looking at it. we have made a goal to have the paint done, the carpet in, new couches, new tv, new entertainment center by august. the rest of the year we will be trying to get new bedroom furniture. corbins room first.

so much rambling. sorry. this blog is about me and what is on my mind so it generally is me rambling about all the things that have been on my mind lately.
enough for now! will post soon with weight loss progress!