first of all i want to make it very clear that everything i am about to post really happened. i'm not one to lie on my blog.

saturday:
saturday night i got off work and we headed to tucanos for dusty's birthday dinner. we took our little monkey and had a great time just the three of us. after dinner it was time to drop off corbin at grandma tamis house and head out to wendover for a night of fun for my man. sooo... we get to wendover, check in to our room, have a few beers and head out to start gambling. we were not winning anything but we still had a great night. if you know anything about me and dusty we are gamblers. being that it was dustys birthday i was going to make sure he had a good chunk of money to burn thru and i also had a good chunk for me too. so we gambled all night til 4 am. we lost... and lost... and lost. when we went to bed we had 100 left for the morning. (we like to gamble all night and a little in the morning).

sunday:
so we got up the next morning and gambled... and lost. we lost everything. dusty had 5 bucks left and he wanted to get us a couple drinks for the road. i told him... "we will get drinks with the debit card. go pick a machine, stick that 5 bucks in there and hit max bet." dusty knew exactly what he wanted to play. we headed over to the game, he put his 5 bucks in there, hit max bet and.... BAM! 82 dollars! next spin... BAM bonus round with 5 free spins...BAM! bonus round 100 bucks won! pretty sweet right? well get this! so he spun once, nothing... next spin...BAM another bonus round! 5 free spins later and he won 327!!! this puts us at 500 and change. i was shocked. 5 bucks left and won almost all of the money we lost the night before back. it was pretty awesome and it made the trip fun and plus it was now officially dustys birthday. great way to end wendover. so we played a little bit more and came home. perfect.
we got home, picked up corbin and now it was time to go christmas shopping with grandma tami. every year (i LOVE this tradition!), we go out with tami and she buys us all an outfit for christmas. pants, shirt, shoes, the whole shabang. so we head out to go shopping and hit the buckle. dusty loves buckle jeans. for the past couple years i don't buy jeans from buckle. not that i don't want to... i'm scared they won't have anything that fits me. i am completely terrified of asking one of those skinny little things that works in there to measure me or help me find something. while dusty is looking for jeans i'm browsing and i see a 36'. i'm thinking "well this is going to be a tight fit but it won't hurt to try them." so i grab them, head to a dressing room and pull them on. they are huge. do not fit me. not even close. so i tell the girl helping me i need a 34'. i try the 34... they fit but still kinda loose in the butt and thighs. so i tell her a 32' . i'm in shock right now because i truely and sincerely believed i wouldn't even find jeans in buckle and now i have gone down 2 sizes! so i try the 32's. they fit. not only do they fit but my butt looks amazing and they really slim down my thighs. i am not going to pretend that i did not have some serious muffin top but i decided to get them anyways because i am planning on loosing some serious pounds by the time we go to disneyland. i just started the "1st annual weightloss smackdown" which is a 90 day challenge for people wanting to drop some weight and whoever wins in the end gets some cash. did i mention the public posting of progress on the challenges facebook page? yeah that is plenty of motivation for me. plus i LOVE those jeans. i will be able to wear them muffin top free. i am excited. love them. so we both got our outfits , headed to birthday dinner at spaghetti factory and headed home to finish out dustys bday with some dvr. we went to bed super early.
it was a great weekend!

this morning i headed to the gym for a good workout and some tanning. then came home and me and corbin went out and finished christmas shopping. right now he is still accross from me downing some pasta while i think about what i am going to put on my fat free salad.

i really can't believe how amazing my husband is. he makes me so happy. he gave me the best compliment that i have ever gotten from anyone ever in my life... we were driving to wendover and half the time we rock out and the other half we talk and talk and talk. so we were talking about my family and my past (which is all very crazy and not something i really talk about to anyone) and dusty said... "you are the strongest person i have ever known in my whole life. you have been thru so much and you don't let it define you." i wanted to cry it made me feel so good. all i have ever tried to do is not let the crazy bring me down. he just knows exactly what to say to make me feel better or to be supportive. he is really really amazing. we started talking about my weight and he told me that i have been able to overcome so much in my short life that losing some pounds shouldn't even be an issue or something that i struggle with. he said that if i put my mind to it... i can do it. he is right. i know he is right. i feel like if i can get this weight off i can do anything.

so now we have christmas and then disneyland. i want to be down at least 20-30 before disneyland. i know that is a lot. i know its not realistic but i also know that i can do it. and i will do it.

first of all i want to make it very clear that everything i am about to post really happened. i'm not one to lie on my blog.

saturday:
saturday night i got off work and we headed to tucanos for dusty's birthday dinner. we took our little monkey and had a great time just the three of us. after dinner it was time to drop off corbin at grandma tamis house and head out to wendover for a night of fun for my man. sooo... we get to wendover, check in to our room, have a few beers and head out to start gambling. we were not winning anything but we still had a great night. if you know anything about me and dusty we are gamblers. being that it was dustys birthday i was going to make sure he had a good chunk of money to burn thru and i also had a good chunk for me too. so we gambled all night til 4 am. we lost... and lost... and lost. when we went to bed we had 100 left for the morning. (we like to gamble all night and a little in the morning).

sunday:
so we got up the next morning and gambled... and lost. we lost everything. dusty had 5 bucks left and he wanted to get us a couple drinks for the road. i told him... "we will get drinks with the debit card. go pick a machine, stick that 5 bucks in there and hit max bet." dusty knew exactly what he wanted to play. we headed over to the game, he put his 5 bucks in there, hit max bet and.... BAM! 82 dollars! next spin... BAM bonus round with 5 free spins...BAM! bonus round 100 bucks won! pretty sweet right? well get this! so he spun once, nothing... next spin...BAM another bonus round! 5 free spins later and he won 327!!! this puts us at 500 and change. i was shocked. 5 bucks left and won almost all of the money we lost the night before back. it was pretty awesome and it made the trip fun and plus it was now officially dustys birthday. great way to end wendover. so we played a little bit more and came home. perfect.
we got home, picked up corbin and now it was time to go christmas shopping with grandma tami. every year (i LOVE this tradition!), we go out with tami and she buys us all an outfit for christmas. pants, shirt, shoes, the whole shabang. so we head out to go shopping and hit the buckle. dusty loves buckle jeans. for the past couple years i don't buy jeans from buckle. not that i don't want to... i'm scared they won't have anything that fits me. i am completely terrified of asking one of those skinny little things that works in there to measure me or help me find something. while dusty is looking for jeans i'm browsing and i see a 36'. i'm thinking "well this is going to be a tight fit but it won't hurt to try them." so i grab them, head to a dressing room and pull them on. they are huge. do not fit me. not even close. so i tell the girl helping me i need a 34'. i try the 34... they fit but still kinda loose in the butt and thighs. so i tell her a 32' . i'm in shock right now because i truely and sincerely believed i wouldn't even find jeans in buckle and now i have gone down 2 sizes! so i try the 32's. they fit. not only do they fit but my butt looks amazing and they really slim down my thighs. i am not going to pretend that i did not have some serious muffin top but i decided to get them anyways because i am planning on loosing some serious pounds by the time we go to disneyland. i just started the "1st annual weightloss smackdown" which is a 90 day challenge for people wanting to drop some weight and whoever wins in the end gets some cash. did i mention the public posting of progress on the challenges facebook page? yeah that is plenty of motivation for me. plus i LOVE those jeans. i will be able to wear them muffin top free. i am excited. love them. so we both got our outfits , headed to birthday dinner at spaghetti factory and headed home to finish out dustys bday with some dvr. we went to bed super early.
it was a great weekend!

this morning i headed to the gym for a good workout and some tanning. then came home and me and corbin went out and finished christmas shopping. right now he is still accross from me downing some pasta while i think about what i am going to put on my fat free salad.

i really can't believe how amazing my husband is. he makes me so happy. he gave me the best compliment that i have ever gotten from anyone ever in my life... we were driving to wendover and half the time we rock out and the other half we talk and talk and talk. so we were talking about my family and my past (which is all very crazy and not something i really talk about to anyone) and dusty said... "you are the strongest person i have ever known in my whole life. you have been thru so much and you don't let it define you." i wanted to cry it made me feel so good. all i have ever tried to do is not let the crazy bring me down. he just knows exactly what to say to make me feel better or to be supportive. he is really really amazing. we started talking about my weight and he told me that i have been able to overcome so much in my short life that losing some pounds shouldn't even be an issue or something that i struggle with. he said that if i put my mind to it... i can do it. he is right. i know he is right. i feel like if i can get this weight off i can do anything.

so now we have christmas and then disneyland. i want to be down at least 20-30 before disneyland. i know that is a lot. i know its not realistic but i also know that i can do it. and i will do it.