i have been so up and down lately. i can't make up my mind. i don't really know how i feel. so much has been going on in my life lately, i don't even know where to begin...
my baby is officially 2! weird! 2! i can't believe it. really... i can't. it seems like it was not too long ago that my little man was taking his first steps. i am so excited to see him grow up, but so sad at the same time knowing that he is not a baby anymore, he is a toddler! i didn't cry today. i think i was too busy to really have it sink in that corbin is 2 years old. the party was today. it was perfect. a couple little battles but ultimately we won the war. i am so lucky i have so many amazing people in my life who help and want to be a part of everything. (honestly i could not, no way in hell of done this without dusty and tami. tami took charge of getting all the food and drinks. she helped with the bbq and letting us borrow her chairs. she was my own personal angel today. i was on the verge of a melt down at costco and she swooped in and assured me that i would survive, everything would be okay, and she would help me make it be okay if things did fall apart. dusty has been cleaning his entire 3 days off. he has been working in the yard. he has been doing all of this while juggling corbin while i work. dusty has been absolutely amazing these past few days! (after reading my previous posts i'm sure you expect nothing less). the party was a success. i had the most amazing cake made, the decorations were great, the food was great, corbin got spoiled, everything was perfect. sadly dusty's dad couldn't make it because of work and that was the only thing i would of changed. it was a perfect day. now it is over and i am really starting to think about my little boy sleeping at the end of the hall. how did corbin turn 2? where have i been!? it doesn't feel like it has been 2 years. it scares me how fast the time is going by. how much he is growing up everyday. i can't believe it. he is the light of my life. he is everything i have ever wanted. he makes me happy every single day. corbin is my everything. he has been since the day i found out i was pregnant. now he is growing up. he isn't my little baby anymore. i don't have a baby anymore. i have a toddler. i have a little boy. i am going to be one of those moms who says "oh yeah he is 24 months" instead of just saying 2... it blows me away. 2... so crazy. i fall more in love with that little boy every single day. my little boy. my life.
tomorrow is my last night at skywest! another completely weird emotional thing i have to deal with this weekend. skywest has been the funnest job with the greatest co-workers i have ever had. i have met some amazing people who have become some of my best friends at skywest. i look at skywest as the place i grew up. i started there when i was 6 months shy of turning 20. i met dusty 3 months after starting there. dusty and i fell in love, got pregnant, got married, had corbin, bought a house all while i was working at skywest. (and yes it all happened in that order). i met matt and jason and skywest. i love them. they are in my 10 ten of best people i have ever known. it is going to be really hard not seeing them every day. i met justin at skywest. again someone i consider a very close friend. i met andy and skywest. luckily andy and i got hired on at amex together so i still get to see him everyday. i really just love skywest. i love the people, i love the job, i love the airport. the thing i don't love is not getting 40 hours a week and making a fraction of what i am making at american express. i feel like i get treated better at american express. it is so bitter sweet. it is so heartbreaking to me that i won't be a skywest employee anymore. i have to turn in my badges and uniforms. i have to say goodbye. on the other hand i am somewhere now where i am happy, making money, and loving my life. i just don't know how to feel. i am going to cry tomorrow night. it is going to be very sad leaving for the last time. handing my badges over. leaving my friends. i know it is the right choice. i know it is what i need to do. it just doesn't make it any easier.
on top of corbin turning 2 and leaving skywest, there is so much going on. we had to buy a new computer, we are trying to plan another wendover trip, i will be out of training next month. life is crazy right now. thank god for dusty. i honestly don't know what i would do without that man. he has been a life saver. he has been amazing... as usual.
up and down up and down up and down... it hasn't stopped! hopefully now that the birthday party is done and i can put skywest in my past things will calm down a little bit. hopefully. we'll see i guess. we will just have to wait and see what the next couple months has in store. then we will have my birthday to worry about in august. so until probably mid july things should relax a bit. probably not. it never does. here's to hoping!

i have been so up and down lately. i can't make up my mind. i don't really know how i feel. so much has been going on in my life lately, i don't even know where to begin...
my baby is officially 2! weird! 2! i can't believe it. really... i can't. it seems like it was not too long ago that my little man was taking his first steps. i am so excited to see him grow up, but so sad at the same time knowing that he is not a baby anymore, he is a toddler! i didn't cry today. i think i was too busy to really have it sink in that corbin is 2 years old. the party was today. it was perfect. a couple little battles but ultimately we won the war. i am so lucky i have so many amazing people in my life who help and want to be a part of everything. (honestly i could not, no way in hell of done this without dusty and tami. tami took charge of getting all the food and drinks. she helped with the bbq and letting us borrow her chairs. she was my own personal angel today. i was on the verge of a melt down at costco and she swooped in and assured me that i would survive, everything would be okay, and she would help me make it be okay if things did fall apart. dusty has been cleaning his entire 3 days off. he has been working in the yard. he has been doing all of this while juggling corbin while i work. dusty has been absolutely amazing these past few days! (after reading my previous posts i'm sure you expect nothing less). the party was a success. i had the most amazing cake made, the decorations were great, the food was great, corbin got spoiled, everything was perfect. sadly dusty's dad couldn't make it because of work and that was the only thing i would of changed. it was a perfect day. now it is over and i am really starting to think about my little boy sleeping at the end of the hall. how did corbin turn 2? where have i been!? it doesn't feel like it has been 2 years. it scares me how fast the time is going by. how much he is growing up everyday. i can't believe it. he is the light of my life. he is everything i have ever wanted. he makes me happy every single day. corbin is my everything. he has been since the day i found out i was pregnant. now he is growing up. he isn't my little baby anymore. i don't have a baby anymore. i have a toddler. i have a little boy. i am going to be one of those moms who says "oh yeah he is 24 months" instead of just saying 2... it blows me away. 2... so crazy. i fall more in love with that little boy every single day. my little boy. my life.
tomorrow is my last night at skywest! another completely weird emotional thing i have to deal with this weekend. skywest has been the funnest job with the greatest co-workers i have ever had. i have met some amazing people who have become some of my best friends at skywest. i look at skywest as the place i grew up. i started there when i was 6 months shy of turning 20. i met dusty 3 months after starting there. dusty and i fell in love, got pregnant, got married, had corbin, bought a house all while i was working at skywest. (and yes it all happened in that order). i met matt and jason and skywest. i love them. they are in my 10 ten of best people i have ever known. it is going to be really hard not seeing them every day. i met justin at skywest. again someone i consider a very close friend. i met andy and skywest. luckily andy and i got hired on at amex together so i still get to see him everyday. i really just love skywest. i love the people, i love the job, i love the airport. the thing i don't love is not getting 40 hours a week and making a fraction of what i am making at american express. i feel like i get treated better at american express. it is so bitter sweet. it is so heartbreaking to me that i won't be a skywest employee anymore. i have to turn in my badges and uniforms. i have to say goodbye. on the other hand i am somewhere now where i am happy, making money, and loving my life. i just don't know how to feel. i am going to cry tomorrow night. it is going to be very sad leaving for the last time. handing my badges over. leaving my friends. i know it is the right choice. i know it is what i need to do. it just doesn't make it any easier.
on top of corbin turning 2 and leaving skywest, there is so much going on. we had to buy a new computer, we are trying to plan another wendover trip, i will be out of training next month. life is crazy right now. thank god for dusty. i honestly don't know what i would do without that man. he has been a life saver. he has been amazing... as usual.
up and down up and down up and down... it hasn't stopped! hopefully now that the birthday party is done and i can put skywest in my past things will calm down a little bit. hopefully. we'll see i guess. we will just have to wait and see what the next couple months has in store. then we will have my birthday to worry about in august. so until probably mid july things should relax a bit. probably not. it never does. here's to hoping!