wow. 2 years. so much has happened in 2 years. married, baby, house, new job. so much. 4 years ago i never ever thought my life would be what it is today. 4 years ago dusty and i didn't even know eachother. 4 years ago i was staring from a distance wondering "who is this guy????" then we finally met. he asked me out. took me to ruth's diner for breakfast. i still remember what i ordered, where we sat, what he was wearing. it is so strange to think about 4 years ago. we didn't even start dating til june 07. august 07 we took our first vegas trip together. december 07 our first disneyland trip. when dusty and i met i didn't want a relationship. the idea of marriage was a complete joke to me and no way in hell did i want a screaming, pooping little brat running around. now look at me! fast forward a year. august 08 we took a trip to vegas for my birthday. come home and a month later find out (holy crap) we are pregnant! i cried. i felt guilty in a way. we hadn't been together that long and i felt like i was taking his life away. i felt like he would feel like he had to be with me because of the baby. i'm not going to lie, when i found out i was pregnant i was so freaked out all i could do was cry. i took the test and he was still asleep, i just stood there at the foot of the bed and watched him sleep so peaceful knowing that when he woke up his life would never be the same. i cried and cried. he woke up. "oh babe whats wrong???" "i took the test... i'm pregnant." he smiled and hugged me. he was so happy. so excited! when i saw how happy he was i knew. that was it for me. i fell in love all over again. we found out on september 11th. what a great emotional day to find out your life is changing forever. it was such an emotional day. i remember we were laying in bed that night watching tv and there was a commercial with a new dad holding his tiny baby. we looked at eachother and smiled. we were going to be parents! me? someone who absolutely hated kids. i would see a kid screaming in the airport and think to myself, "why in gods name would someone want one of those!!!??" i changed. immediately. i knew just a couple months after me and dusty started dating that it was different. i had been in a terrible relationship a year prior. i mean a really bad relationship. name calling, emotional abuse, physical abuse. dusty was so different. so nice. so sweet. he was everything i never knew existed in a man. he made me soft. i was a girl who had a giant wall up. no one would ever ever hurt me again. when i met dusty i knew he would never hurt me. he would protect me. i had stability, security, love. in september 08 we went to disneyland. we had a blast. i think we both knew it was probably the last trip we would be able to go on and be selfish. december 08 dusty proposed. i cried. i was 4 months pregnant. it was one of the best moments in my life. so now we are engaged. happy and pregnant and engaged. april 29th 2009, married! perfect. i was never the girl that dreamed about having a giant ridiculously expensive wedding. i look at my wedding day as perfect. we got married in the courthouse with everyone we love most there. we went and partied (no alcohol for me of course!) at squatters, we spent our first night together at little america, then the next day we went and bought stuff for corbin. it was perfect. i sat in the giant tub while dusty read me all of our wedding cards. i loved it and i wouldn't change a thing. may 14, 2009, corbin is born. best day of my life. when he came out and they put him on my chest, i lost it. i cried and cried and cried. the happiest cry anyone can have. he was perfect. he had so much hair! he was a dream come true. march 2010, we bought a house! wow. we knew we wanted to buy long before we actually did it. things got real. we started saving money and house hunting. the house we bought had been on the market for over a year. started and 215,000, dropped to 200, then 190, then 180, then 170. finally a house in our price range! we went and got our loan. we put the house under contract, got our down payment together, and bam! home owners! we found a great house and a price we wanted to pay. may 2010, corbin's first birthday in our own home. that was the goal. have corbins first birthday in a house we owned. we made it happen. we always make it happen. i don't want to toot my own horn but when we decide we are going to do something, we do it. we don't mess around. so in 4 years i have become a totally different person. i am a wife, i am a mother, i am a home owner. 3 things i never thought would happen for me. perfect.
dusty has changed my life. he has made me a better person all the way around. he makes me want to be better. he gave me our son. he makes me laugh ALL THE TIME. if i have a bad dream (which happens too often), i know i can wake him up and he will hold me til i fall back asleep. we like to do the same things. we never fight. dusty and i have had maybe 4 big fights the entire time we have known eachother. i can't even remember what they were about. we argue sure, who doesn't? but we don't fight. we don't have "issues". since i got this new job dusty has been a saint. he cleans, he helps me with everything. he supports me. he listens to me ramble on about my day and my co-workers. he asks me about my books and lets me ramble on about what i am reading. he makes me so happy. he knows how hard i am trying. how much i am working. he supports me and helps me stay strong. he is the best. he is an amazing father. corbin lights up when dusty is around and he screams and cries when dusty leaves. they play and run around crazy and corbin laughs and smiles. i couldn't dream of a better dad for my little guy. i know dusty and corbin will have a great relationship. they make me laugh. they remind me of phil and luke from modern family. dusty is like a little kid when him and corbin play. he is so happy. we are so lucky. we have our little monkey. we have eachother. we own a home. we are making more cash to do more fun things and more home improvments. dusty found me. he tore down my wall. he made me want things again. he made me fall in love. he taught me how to not be so closed off. he made me believe that there are good people in this world. he is my everything. my little family. dusty, corbin, mommy. i feel like the luckiest girl in the world right now. life is good. he is my best friend. when i have my crazy anxiety spells he helps me. he calms me down. he cuddles with me til i fall asleep. he always sets his phone alarm and makes sure i get up in the morning. we enjoy the same things. we love watching our dvr shows every night when he gets home from work. we love going to wendover. we love movies. we love spending money on our little monkey. i can't believe how much my life has changed in 4 years. thats really not that long of a time. i can't believe how happy i am. how safe i feel. how excited i am for the rest of our lives together. 2 year anniversary tomorrow and we are going to water for elephants. i'm sure there are movies dusty would rather see, but he knows how much i loved the book. he knows how excited i was when i heard about the movie and how i have been waiting for it. i told him i wanted to go and he suggested we go on our anniversary. he is the most unselfish person i have ever known. dusty is an amazing husband, father, friend. i am so blessed we found eachother. i am so excited to spend the rest of our lives laughing together, having fun together, being together. these past 4 years have been the best years of my life. i wouldn't change a single thing. life is perfect. it is all thanks to dusty and my little angel sleeping down the hall.
dusty,
i fall more in love with you every day dusty. i couldn't dream of a happier life than the one i share with you. thank you for corbin. thank you for your love and support. thank you for finding me. thank you for giving me the most amazing 4 years of my life. thank you for making me so excited to grow old with you by my side. i love you more than i could ever tell you. you have made me the happiest i have ever been. you and corbin are the light in my life. i love you so much. so so so so much. happy 2 year anniversary babe!

wow. 2 years. so much has happened in 2 years. married, baby, house, new job. so much. 4 years ago i never ever thought my life would be what it is today. 4 years ago dusty and i didn't even know eachother. 4 years ago i was staring from a distance wondering "who is this guy????" then we finally met. he asked me out. took me to ruth's diner for breakfast. i still remember what i ordered, where we sat, what he was wearing. it is so strange to think about 4 years ago. we didn't even start dating til june 07. august 07 we took our first vegas trip together. december 07 our first disneyland trip. when dusty and i met i didn't want a relationship. the idea of marriage was a complete joke to me and no way in hell did i want a screaming, pooping little brat running around. now look at me! fast forward a year. august 08 we took a trip to vegas for my birthday. come home and a month later find out (holy crap) we are pregnant! i cried. i felt guilty in a way. we hadn't been together that long and i felt like i was taking his life away. i felt like he would feel like he had to be with me because of the baby. i'm not going to lie, when i found out i was pregnant i was so freaked out all i could do was cry. i took the test and he was still asleep, i just stood there at the foot of the bed and watched him sleep so peaceful knowing that when he woke up his life would never be the same. i cried and cried. he woke up. "oh babe whats wrong???" "i took the test... i'm pregnant." he smiled and hugged me. he was so happy. so excited! when i saw how happy he was i knew. that was it for me. i fell in love all over again. we found out on september 11th. what a great emotional day to find out your life is changing forever. it was such an emotional day. i remember we were laying in bed that night watching tv and there was a commercial with a new dad holding his tiny baby. we looked at eachother and smiled. we were going to be parents! me? someone who absolutely hated kids. i would see a kid screaming in the airport and think to myself, "why in gods name would someone want one of those!!!??" i changed. immediately. i knew just a couple months after me and dusty started dating that it was different. i had been in a terrible relationship a year prior. i mean a really bad relationship. name calling, emotional abuse, physical abuse. dusty was so different. so nice. so sweet. he was everything i never knew existed in a man. he made me soft. i was a girl who had a giant wall up. no one would ever ever hurt me again. when i met dusty i knew he would never hurt me. he would protect me. i had stability, security, love. in september 08 we went to disneyland. we had a blast. i think we both knew it was probably the last trip we would be able to go on and be selfish. december 08 dusty proposed. i cried. i was 4 months pregnant. it was one of the best moments in my life. so now we are engaged. happy and pregnant and engaged. april 29th 2009, married! perfect. i was never the girl that dreamed about having a giant ridiculously expensive wedding. i look at my wedding day as perfect. we got married in the courthouse with everyone we love most there. we went and partied (no alcohol for me of course!) at squatters, we spent our first night together at little america, then the next day we went and bought stuff for corbin. it was perfect. i sat in the giant tub while dusty read me all of our wedding cards. i loved it and i wouldn't change a thing. may 14, 2009, corbin is born. best day of my life. when he came out and they put him on my chest, i lost it. i cried and cried and cried. the happiest cry anyone can have. he was perfect. he had so much hair! he was a dream come true. march 2010, we bought a house! wow. we knew we wanted to buy long before we actually did it. things got real. we started saving money and house hunting. the house we bought had been on the market for over a year. started and 215,000, dropped to 200, then 190, then 180, then 170. finally a house in our price range! we went and got our loan. we put the house under contract, got our down payment together, and bam! home owners! we found a great house and a price we wanted to pay. may 2010, corbin's first birthday in our own home. that was the goal. have corbins first birthday in a house we owned. we made it happen. we always make it happen. i don't want to toot my own horn but when we decide we are going to do something, we do it. we don't mess around. so in 4 years i have become a totally different person. i am a wife, i am a mother, i am a home owner. 3 things i never thought would happen for me. perfect.
dusty has changed my life. he has made me a better person all the way around. he makes me want to be better. he gave me our son. he makes me laugh ALL THE TIME. if i have a bad dream (which happens too often), i know i can wake him up and he will hold me til i fall back asleep. we like to do the same things. we never fight. dusty and i have had maybe 4 big fights the entire time we have known eachother. i can't even remember what they were about. we argue sure, who doesn't? but we don't fight. we don't have "issues". since i got this new job dusty has been a saint. he cleans, he helps me with everything. he supports me. he listens to me ramble on about my day and my co-workers. he asks me about my books and lets me ramble on about what i am reading. he makes me so happy. he knows how hard i am trying. how much i am working. he supports me and helps me stay strong. he is the best. he is an amazing father. corbin lights up when dusty is around and he screams and cries when dusty leaves. they play and run around crazy and corbin laughs and smiles. i couldn't dream of a better dad for my little guy. i know dusty and corbin will have a great relationship. they make me laugh. they remind me of phil and luke from modern family. dusty is like a little kid when him and corbin play. he is so happy. we are so lucky. we have our little monkey. we have eachother. we own a home. we are making more cash to do more fun things and more home improvments. dusty found me. he tore down my wall. he made me want things again. he made me fall in love. he taught me how to not be so closed off. he made me believe that there are good people in this world. he is my everything. my little family. dusty, corbin, mommy. i feel like the luckiest girl in the world right now. life is good. he is my best friend. when i have my crazy anxiety spells he helps me. he calms me down. he cuddles with me til i fall asleep. he always sets his phone alarm and makes sure i get up in the morning. we enjoy the same things. we love watching our dvr shows every night when he gets home from work. we love going to wendover. we love movies. we love spending money on our little monkey. i can't believe how much my life has changed in 4 years. thats really not that long of a time. i can't believe how happy i am. how safe i feel. how excited i am for the rest of our lives together. 2 year anniversary tomorrow and we are going to water for elephants. i'm sure there are movies dusty would rather see, but he knows how much i loved the book. he knows how excited i was when i heard about the movie and how i have been waiting for it. i told him i wanted to go and he suggested we go on our anniversary. he is the most unselfish person i have ever known. dusty is an amazing husband, father, friend. i am so blessed we found eachother. i am so excited to spend the rest of our lives laughing together, having fun together, being together. these past 4 years have been the best years of my life. i wouldn't change a single thing. life is perfect. it is all thanks to dusty and my little angel sleeping down the hall.
dusty,
i fall more in love with you every day dusty. i couldn't dream of a happier life than the one i share with you. thank you for corbin. thank you for your love and support. thank you for finding me. thank you for giving me the most amazing 4 years of my life. thank you for making me so excited to grow old with you by my side. i love you more than i could ever tell you. you have made me the happiest i have ever been. you and corbin are the light in my life. i love you so much. so so so so much. happy 2 year anniversary babe!