i don't really know what to title this post because i honestly don't even know what i am going to write about. i just feel like i need to write.
my grandma is in the hospital. she refuses to take her meds and wear her oxygen so her blood pressure is through the roof. they are keeping her overnight. i hope she is ok. i worry about her all the time. she is an amazing woman and she has done so much for me. she took me to school and picked me up every morning, did my laundry, babysat all the time. she is great. she is hilarious. little stubborn italian lady. when i say little i mean little. she is 4'11. she is an angel. i don't think i could handle it if something happened to her with everything else going on. i don't think my family could handle it. we are all dealing with enough right now. my grandma has been a huge inspiration to me. she never ever complains about anything. she is a very happy positive person. she likes to do laundry and take care of things at home. i know it is really hard for her because she has to wear the oxygen all the time and she always has to go up and down stairs in their house because the laundry room is in the basement. so she takes her oxygen off to go downstairs and never puts it back on. she had open heart surgery in the stone age. she was one of the first people in utah to have that kind of surgery. my grandparents are amazing people. i really couldn't handle it....
i have been so bored lately. dusty is consumed with yard work. when he is off work he is working in the yard. so annoying. i never see him so when he is off i want to hang out with him, but he wants to be in the yard and honestly, yard work is NOT my thing. so even though we had 3 amazing days off together the only time i saw him is when he "ran out of daylight". i waited for the sun to go down for 3 nights. i miss him whenever he is away from me. i know corbin misses him. corbin would love to spend every waking minute with daddy. daddy is corbo's big interactive toy. it is the cutest thing to watch them play. best dad ever. tonight dusty is at work trying to get as many hours as possible. this is birthday pay period. the more we work the more we can play for my birthday. it is so hard to want to work right now. knowing we are ahead and we don't need to. it is quite the challenge. i know the only way for us to stay ahead and still be able to play and have fun like we have been is to keep on the daily grind and get it done. so that is what we are going to do. i feel like i work too much. i want to be home with my baby. i just can't stand the thought of dusty busting his butt while i sit home. i have to do my part. i have to help out. i want dusty to feel like i do everything i can. i know he knows i do. i wouldn't mind dusty being mr. mom if i ever got a high enough paying job. i want to go to school so bad. i just worry about books and tuition and all that. its just not the right time. i know that i will know when it is right, its just now now.
i have been kinda spendy lately. i did a facelift on the master bathroom (much needed!!!) i have this nagging feeling that i need to go shopping. losing a lot of weight does that to a person i guess. i'm going to try and be good until before we go to disneyland. hopefully i will be down another 20lbs at least then i can really go crazy shopping. and everything that i will want to buy (swim suit, tank tops, shorts, skirts) will be on sale because it will be september. so yes i will put on my halo and not spend anymore money. maybe.
so here i sit home waiting for my husband to walk through the door. its my friday-monday routine. about this time every night (11-1130) i get really restless because i know he will be home soon. he will be here to make stupid jokes, and listen to me talk about my boring day while he tells me about his, we will decide what to do about my b-day, the normal husband/wife banter. i wish for tuesday every single friday night. tuesday. our day. the day we get together. the day we usually go rent movies and when dusty "runs out of daylight" and corbo is in bed we stay up all hours of the night watching movies, hanging out. my favorite day of the week by far. i don't know if marriage has made me really co-dependent or what. i just want him here all the time. i sleep better knowing he is here. i never ever go to bed until dusty is home. i don't think i could handle him going out of town without me. oh geez i sound like a loser with a capitol l. i think this is what happens when you have a good marriage. you want the other person around. hahahaha. i just don't see myself ever wishing i could be away from dusty. i know i could never get sick of him. (if we can go three months together day in and day out on maternity leave, we can do anything!) i just realized all of my posts somehow revert back to how great dusty is and how happy he makes me. if he only knew some of the mooshy things i say about him. this is one reason i shouldn't blog when i know he is almost home. i got dusty on the brain this time of night. i should try blogging at noon.
i need to get back to my lego harry potter. it controls my life now. it is really all i do in my free time. so now you know that i am completely whipped over my husband and i am a video game junky. go team. before i make myself sound like more of a loser i better sign off.
we will call this post capitol L.

i don't really know what to title this post because i honestly don't even know what i am going to write about. i just feel like i need to write.
my grandma is in the hospital. she refuses to take her meds and wear her oxygen so her blood pressure is through the roof. they are keeping her overnight. i hope she is ok. i worry about her all the time. she is an amazing woman and she has done so much for me. she took me to school and picked me up every morning, did my laundry, babysat all the time. she is great. she is hilarious. little stubborn italian lady. when i say little i mean little. she is 4'11. she is an angel. i don't think i could handle it if something happened to her with everything else going on. i don't think my family could handle it. we are all dealing with enough right now. my grandma has been a huge inspiration to me. she never ever complains about anything. she is a very happy positive person. she likes to do laundry and take care of things at home. i know it is really hard for her because she has to wear the oxygen all the time and she always has to go up and down stairs in their house because the laundry room is in the basement. so she takes her oxygen off to go downstairs and never puts it back on. she had open heart surgery in the stone age. she was one of the first people in utah to have that kind of surgery. my grandparents are amazing people. i really couldn't handle it....
i have been so bored lately. dusty is consumed with yard work. when he is off work he is working in the yard. so annoying. i never see him so when he is off i want to hang out with him, but he wants to be in the yard and honestly, yard work is NOT my thing. so even though we had 3 amazing days off together the only time i saw him is when he "ran out of daylight". i waited for the sun to go down for 3 nights. i miss him whenever he is away from me. i know corbin misses him. corbin would love to spend every waking minute with daddy. daddy is corbo's big interactive toy. it is the cutest thing to watch them play. best dad ever. tonight dusty is at work trying to get as many hours as possible. this is birthday pay period. the more we work the more we can play for my birthday. it is so hard to want to work right now. knowing we are ahead and we don't need to. it is quite the challenge. i know the only way for us to stay ahead and still be able to play and have fun like we have been is to keep on the daily grind and get it done. so that is what we are going to do. i feel like i work too much. i want to be home with my baby. i just can't stand the thought of dusty busting his butt while i sit home. i have to do my part. i have to help out. i want dusty to feel like i do everything i can. i know he knows i do. i wouldn't mind dusty being mr. mom if i ever got a high enough paying job. i want to go to school so bad. i just worry about books and tuition and all that. its just not the right time. i know that i will know when it is right, its just now now.
i have been kinda spendy lately. i did a facelift on the master bathroom (much needed!!!) i have this nagging feeling that i need to go shopping. losing a lot of weight does that to a person i guess. i'm going to try and be good until before we go to disneyland. hopefully i will be down another 20lbs at least then i can really go crazy shopping. and everything that i will want to buy (swim suit, tank tops, shorts, skirts) will be on sale because it will be september. so yes i will put on my halo and not spend anymore money. maybe.
so here i sit home waiting for my husband to walk through the door. its my friday-monday routine. about this time every night (11-1130) i get really restless because i know he will be home soon. he will be here to make stupid jokes, and listen to me talk about my boring day while he tells me about his, we will decide what to do about my b-day, the normal husband/wife banter. i wish for tuesday every single friday night. tuesday. our day. the day we get together. the day we usually go rent movies and when dusty "runs out of daylight" and corbo is in bed we stay up all hours of the night watching movies, hanging out. my favorite day of the week by far. i don't know if marriage has made me really co-dependent or what. i just want him here all the time. i sleep better knowing he is here. i never ever go to bed until dusty is home. i don't think i could handle him going out of town without me. oh geez i sound like a loser with a capitol l. i think this is what happens when you have a good marriage. you want the other person around. hahahaha. i just don't see myself ever wishing i could be away from dusty. i know i could never get sick of him. (if we can go three months together day in and day out on maternity leave, we can do anything!) i just realized all of my posts somehow revert back to how great dusty is and how happy he makes me. if he only knew some of the mooshy things i say about him. this is one reason i shouldn't blog when i know he is almost home. i got dusty on the brain this time of night. i should try blogging at noon.
i need to get back to my lego harry potter. it controls my life now. it is really all i do in my free time. so now you know that i am completely whipped over my husband and i am a video game junky. go team. before i make myself sound like more of a loser i better sign off.
we will call this post capitol L.