well we have had a good couple of days.
the BLACKHAWKS won the stanley cup. freaking awesome. doesn't get much better than that... right? WRONG! we called the irs to find out about our $8,000 tax credit and they are sending it to us in 8 days! woo hoo! today we went to lowes and tried to decide what kind of home improvments we are going to do. we are going to do a total overhaul on our yard and get a new front door and a new storm door. then inside the house we are going to get a new kitchen sink and a dishwasher! yay! a dishwasher! i can't wait for a dishwasher. i think i am more excited about that than anything. there is so much we want to do. we want to put a big chunk in savings and use the rest for some upgrades on our home. then next year when we get our taxes back we are going to (hopefully) remodel the kitchen. dusty is all pumped to get the yard looking tip top. it has been a good 3 days to say the least. having a good amount of money in savings is going to make us feel alot more secure.
i am planning on getting enrolled in school for the fall semester. i am not exactly sure what i want to do. i have a good 3-4 years of generals and getting my associates to figure that out i guess.
corbin is growing like a weed. not in the height department, but he is developing everyday. it amazes me. he has started copying some things me and dusty say, (time to stop cursing) and he is eating more table food, and he is starting to be entertained by tv. thank god for little einsteins. when he watches that show he just shuts down and goes into a trance. it doesn't matter what is going on around him.
on a side note i read the most amazing book. The Hunger Games. if you haven't read it, you need to. now. right now.
my diet is going great. it is getting harder. i think of it like pregnancy. the first trimester is hell. the second is the best. the third you are back to hell. the first week of this diet was crazy hard. i was almost in tears i wanted a piece of pizza so bad. i held strong and made it to the second week. the easiest week. by the second week you are used to eating healthy and having self control, and the weight FALLS off so it is motivating. then we get to the third week. i want food so bad. i want to eat ice cream and pizza. i know that is what got me to where is was. big and unhappy. (well that and having a baby made me big.) i just keep thinking...its not worth it. i have made it this far. i feel good about myself again. not worth it. it is so hard. i always am catching crap from everyone around me about this damn diet. do you think it is easy for me to be around all this food that i love and used to gorge on? no its not. do you think i wouldn't shave off one of my eyebrows to be able to eat like you do and not gain any weight? i would. i am doing this for me. its about me getting healthy and being happy. i don't give a crap what anyone says or thinks about my diet. i feel better than i have since before i got pregnant. i breathe better at night. i don't snore anymore according to my wonderful husband. my knees don't hurt anymore. i have more energy. i was at a platuea where i didn't lose anything for a few days. i heard that if you eat something sweet and fattening it will put your body in to "what the crap is this" mode and basically get your metabolism going full force again. i was so excited to come home and have a piece of cake. so i did. i felt like crap the rest of the day. i got really sick. it worked though. it is amazing how when you start giving your body healthy food all the time, the minute you don't your body gets mad at you. i can't believe the crap i used to eat. all the time. i have lost a total of 21.2 pounds and i have 8 days left. i am going to do another round after my birthday and i hope to lose another 20 before we go on our disneyland trip. i just don't want to hear about what i am eating and why i am doing it. everywhere i go and eat something or have to be smart about my eating choices i hear it. i am sick of it.
anyways... dusty and i are going out on our monthly date. (its crazy how when you have a child and responsibility you can't go out and blow money all the time.) we are going to go to a movie and RODIZIO. i can't wait. i love that place. really when you think about it, i can get salad with veggies, and tons of protein. a mildly healthy dinner. the next time we go out will probably be for my birthday. we are just going to go to wendover probably. i don't want to use our tax credit for anything about improving our home. paying off debt. not playing around. we want to go somewhere and do something fine, we will save the money and when we have enough we will go. period. no being stupid. i was terrible with money. dusty changed that real quick. i feel so much better paying off a credit card then going shopping. i am not going to lie though when i lose the weight i want to i am going to go out and buy me some skinny clothes for our disneyland vacation.
again just me rambling. i like to blog because i can get things off my chest. i don't care if no one even reads this thing. i bet it is boring. no pictures. just rambling. thats what i do best. i guess maybe i should get a journal. who knows? maybe when we get the home improvments done i will post some pics of our progress. if i feel like it.

well we have had a good couple of days.
the BLACKHAWKS won the stanley cup. freaking awesome. doesn't get much better than that... right? WRONG! we called the irs to find out about our $8,000 tax credit and they are sending it to us in 8 days! woo hoo! today we went to lowes and tried to decide what kind of home improvments we are going to do. we are going to do a total overhaul on our yard and get a new front door and a new storm door. then inside the house we are going to get a new kitchen sink and a dishwasher! yay! a dishwasher! i can't wait for a dishwasher. i think i am more excited about that than anything. there is so much we want to do. we want to put a big chunk in savings and use the rest for some upgrades on our home. then next year when we get our taxes back we are going to (hopefully) remodel the kitchen. dusty is all pumped to get the yard looking tip top. it has been a good 3 days to say the least. having a good amount of money in savings is going to make us feel alot more secure.
i am planning on getting enrolled in school for the fall semester. i am not exactly sure what i want to do. i have a good 3-4 years of generals and getting my associates to figure that out i guess.
corbin is growing like a weed. not in the height department, but he is developing everyday. it amazes me. he has started copying some things me and dusty say, (time to stop cursing) and he is eating more table food, and he is starting to be entertained by tv. thank god for little einsteins. when he watches that show he just shuts down and goes into a trance. it doesn't matter what is going on around him.
on a side note i read the most amazing book. The Hunger Games. if you haven't read it, you need to. now. right now.
my diet is going great. it is getting harder. i think of it like pregnancy. the first trimester is hell. the second is the best. the third you are back to hell. the first week of this diet was crazy hard. i was almost in tears i wanted a piece of pizza so bad. i held strong and made it to the second week. the easiest week. by the second week you are used to eating healthy and having self control, and the weight FALLS off so it is motivating. then we get to the third week. i want food so bad. i want to eat ice cream and pizza. i know that is what got me to where is was. big and unhappy. (well that and having a baby made me big.) i just keep thinking...its not worth it. i have made it this far. i feel good about myself again. not worth it. it is so hard. i always am catching crap from everyone around me about this damn diet. do you think it is easy for me to be around all this food that i love and used to gorge on? no its not. do you think i wouldn't shave off one of my eyebrows to be able to eat like you do and not gain any weight? i would. i am doing this for me. its about me getting healthy and being happy. i don't give a crap what anyone says or thinks about my diet. i feel better than i have since before i got pregnant. i breathe better at night. i don't snore anymore according to my wonderful husband. my knees don't hurt anymore. i have more energy. i was at a platuea where i didn't lose anything for a few days. i heard that if you eat something sweet and fattening it will put your body in to "what the crap is this" mode and basically get your metabolism going full force again. i was so excited to come home and have a piece of cake. so i did. i felt like crap the rest of the day. i got really sick. it worked though. it is amazing how when you start giving your body healthy food all the time, the minute you don't your body gets mad at you. i can't believe the crap i used to eat. all the time. i have lost a total of 21.2 pounds and i have 8 days left. i am going to do another round after my birthday and i hope to lose another 20 before we go on our disneyland trip. i just don't want to hear about what i am eating and why i am doing it. everywhere i go and eat something or have to be smart about my eating choices i hear it. i am sick of it.
anyways... dusty and i are going out on our monthly date. (its crazy how when you have a child and responsibility you can't go out and blow money all the time.) we are going to go to a movie and RODIZIO. i can't wait. i love that place. really when you think about it, i can get salad with veggies, and tons of protein. a mildly healthy dinner. the next time we go out will probably be for my birthday. we are just going to go to wendover probably. i don't want to use our tax credit for anything about improving our home. paying off debt. not playing around. we want to go somewhere and do something fine, we will save the money and when we have enough we will go. period. no being stupid. i was terrible with money. dusty changed that real quick. i feel so much better paying off a credit card then going shopping. i am not going to lie though when i lose the weight i want to i am going to go out and buy me some skinny clothes for our disneyland vacation.
again just me rambling. i like to blog because i can get things off my chest. i don't care if no one even reads this thing. i bet it is boring. no pictures. just rambling. thats what i do best. i guess maybe i should get a journal. who knows? maybe when we get the home improvments done i will post some pics of our progress. if i feel like it.